A Journey of Discovery
By Beth Quist
When I was 36 years old, I was married, had two children, and was living in Utah. I was still officially a Mormon, but was now more "on-the-fence". I was struggling with my faith. A big problem I had was about how women were treated and perceived in a male dominated patriarchy. It was as we were inferior and our only purpose was to serve men - first our father, and when married, the baton was passed to our husband. Women were groomed to be subservient, silent, and obey - always obey. I was often enraged how this perception dripped into our entire world and culture. Other times I would be in tears. I didn't know what to do, or even how to begin to make a change.
Then I had a significant dream spelling out the letters E.S.P. in my mind. This prompted me to learn about Extra Sensory Perception (ESP) so I bought a book and started following the recommendations on how to develop ESP. The very first time I did this I connected with a Spiritual Being by the name of John U.K. (formerly from the United Kingdom). He said he was my Spiritual Guide and teacher. I was shocked - after all, I was a woman and was now experiencing an encounter with a spiritual being! Apparently the rules I learned in Church about everything spiritual comes through the man was incorrect.
John UK then started to teach me the lessons about how to work with spiritual energy, which I eventually put in a book titled "Cultivating Spiritual Energy" But one of my first questions was about God. - "is there a God?"
John U.K.'s response surprised me. He said "There is the Tao. The Tao is everything. Many will label it different names; God, Goddess, All that Is, Allah, Mother Nature, Life Force, etc. You could call it Suzie if it works for you and that is how you want to visualize it. What helps you to understand the Tao is what you can use to help define it. But be aware that by labeling the Tao, you limit your understanding or experience of it."
He went on to say this....
"Dividing the Tao into manageable size parts and studying those particular parts can help your understanding, but remember your understanding will be limited. The drawback of course is that you can miss other parts at the expense of comprehending specific ideas. But by maintaining balance and keeping the totality of the Tao ever present in the mind, this is a workable and useful technique."
What I learned from this conversation with John U.K. is that my view of God at that time - a white old man with white hair and a white beard dressed in white - was like a subset or microcosm of the Tao. We will create subsets of from ideas and concepts to help us better understand them - or a part of them. But we need to remember these are only a part and not the WHOLE. If I changed my perception of God being a woman, for example, I would get a different and new perspective of God. If I view and perceive God as a black man with a black beard, I would get a new and different awareness of this energy source. All of these concepts are part of the whole and all of them are OK because it provides a place one can begin.
After receiving this information, I required a course correction in my understanding and awareness of a higher being. I started to explore using different concepts of a higher power to try and broaden my understanding. I would conceptualize God as female, then as Mother Earth, then as Mother Nature. Each different view and perception gave me a different perspective with new information and awareness. But the biggest change happened after I learned I learned I could step outside my physical body and do remote Qigong treatments. When I learned to do this and became aware I could project a part of my spiritual self to different locations and then connect with a client and interact with their subtle energy to heal their body, I asked myself a new question. Can I project myself to meet "GOD" (or Mother Earth, or the Tao, or All That Is)? Is this possible?
Finally, in one of my meditations I left my physical body and discovered I was in the middle of dark energy. Then, I felt like I was in the middle of white light. I then felt I was in the middle of two types of energy and a thought came to mind that this was the Tao. This was Source. This was "All That Is"! This is it! And is is all energy with purpose and consciousness!
To answer the question, is there a God? My answer is "it depends. It depends on what your view and interpretation of God is. If you view God as EVERYTHING, then the answer is yes. If you view God as an old white man with a beard, I would say, your view and interpretation is incomplete. The Tao is God. The Tao is Source. The Tao is All That Is. The Tao is all energy. The Tao is Everything."
Author Beth Quist
Author of the Quist Quill and the book "Cultivating Spiritual Energy".